It seems that there is a true issue rambling on in today's world. The only one that isn't fully addressed, but many may possess, I do not know. That one problem lies in in the existential solution and the handling of such issues.
For this issue, I shall introduce a few characters, each expressing an articulate highly dynamic trait if it were to be associated with a sole agent. The hyper vigilant agent, the scared agent, the hateful frustrated agent and the arrogant agent.
The main problem I will be tackling is in fact not even a problem, it's only a matter of concern which I hold dear to my heart. It's as though this topic does touch on my very soul as some others may feel. It does pain to say that my sociopathic (psychopathic) state is in fact very different to those who may face this problem, and that this problem may only occur to specific others who so happen to stumble upon these set of events.
1. The deluded conception of time for me. There are more than two ways of perceiving time, in face, abstraction and phenomenologically. When you perceive time in face, you're just flowing with time having estimates of the seconds going by, you're not focusing your full attention to the time ticking. This is interesting because this introduces the relative time field in which we all possess. Most people value time through abstraction which is fairly reasonable, that is ticking time with the full consciousness of being a omniscient god. This type of time frame refers to those who are constantly counting, which refers to the hyper vigilant behaviour if one decides to act that way, or feels compelled to do so. Finally there's the phenomenological time, where one does not rely on abstraction but where one sets his own time state by his dreams or his corresponding emotions, this is one for the psychopath. The state in which the phenomenological time works usually is observed in dream states, it's hard to say but during dreams of insomnia or those mimicking reality and express stories of social nature; a time steam is introduced by itself, it's fairly rare for me, but does happen frequently on some occasions. The time stream in this phenomenological approach would be a time of itself, sometimes it feels as though a billion years of frustration has built up over the time of being imprisoned in a time warp. Usually days go by in my dream where events skip but I'm made to believe two days have passed, even though many many events happen. These are the same kind of things where mittyesque take place in ones mind, time passing extremely slow for detailed day dreams of explosions and egocentric delusions, whilst the world only ticks four second. For me time passes very fast as I spend most days effectively tackling down philosophical solutions and technological solutions, seldom social issues. If i were to relay a social context it's usually how to manipulate a crowd or even single human being, it's at my best interest to understand how things work, literally everything, for wonder's sake.
2. This existential crisis is just like the time crisis, with no conclusion to the previous paragraph itself, the assumption I'm leading on is not to express a point. There is no point to be made, it's only the expression of links in which I'm trying to show significance too. For a person to feel under stress of the existential crisis, it's presented in a way of high distress, as though without meaning there is nothing. Of course it's a bit daunting with the idea of a buzz-kill in place, in place within the biggest walls of the universe and encoded into the prime code of nature itself. It is vital to understand that the existential question does not require an answer and could be described as an on going process rather than a finite expression/ value. The only problem with the on going process is (referring to time again) the will required to constantly transvalue is hard, your time stream and drive would mean measuring and dealing with the social anxiety forced into your head has to be handled with extreme assertions of great torque. Hitting yourself with an orange 240 times and not knowing how to answer it, well learn to embrace the orange hitting you for the time being while you think about a solution.
I do believe that it's all about solutions and solving things. What happens when the existential crisis whacks you on the head? well it'll probably send you into a state of depression, an odd single minded, ambient, rotten parasite lingering in your brain. This will probably make you pessimistic and will probably send you either into a suicide junkie a junkie or even a weed smoking hipster. I do not know. But one things for sure, there is no existential answer, that's the idea in our universe. Even if there was a scientist from another universe who created our universe, he wouldn't be our god. Perhaps if even encoded into our systems, we wouldn't know until we so happen to use the scientific method to observe, pure empiricism to understand ourselves. But until then? well we just say everything's relative. This is not the methodology I followed, If I did this I would've probably analysed it, scraped it and attempted another solution.
Lets say there is no existential answer, what next. Like I expressed most kids do not understand that the world does not world in a linear time stream. When abstraction is expressed through wielding science as a lens, you must understand it's not how your text book operates, it's never chronological. In fact it's in all dimensions and in all ways, backwards in time and forwards in time. When you change your abstracted view's, you'll realise that you're in a world of nihilism which leaves you in wonder. It's the case of a perfect eden where adam and eve are first introduced into the world. In the 21st century's case, a man and women from the upper middle class enter a beautiful shopping mall where everything's free for eternity. They'll be amazed and happy, for the first time they'll be lost in wonder, they'll stop caring about their origins. They'll care about what's at hand and what is it is that floats in the air that's invisible and uncertain. It's this thrill, this beat in your heart that'll you'll feel, of course this feeling is only activated in a very specific manner, usually when I feel comfortable and driven. The drive actually comes from the inner rage and hatred from the uncertainty, in every Gung ho situation where people take a leap of faith, well there's always fear and fear when bottled up will eventually turn into the hottest rage and hatred on the planet. I personally have lots of that, and I've learn't to control it into a driving force which also sometimes distorts my time, and sometimes deludes my existence into that of an immortal. But overall I've controlled my rage, I believe violence is also extremely petty, but of course as my tactician's bilk observers everything it's important to be insightful of violence's effectiveness as a tool to combat solutions. Personally I see myself as a master tactician.
The rumble zone is something in which the hyper vigilant agent, the scared agent and the hateful agent is shown to fall under. Sometimes when you realise the existential value at present you'll abuse that nature and think you're better than everyone else. It is true that you are better in a sense that you've attempted to solve lifes personal questions through thinking a lot, the thought may never leave you, but like the orange hitting yourself 240 times, always ground yourself into a state where you see everyone equal. It's not to be nice in any sense, but it's the view of looking at the world with a more balanced view and not to over estimate your own worth. The existential question now for me feels melancholic, it doesn't feel as hateful but nowadays it feels ambient and melancholic. Why melancholic, I believe it's just the realisation of emptiness but also mixed with a heap of beautiful wonder. It's the feeling when you take a walk outside the city at 3 in the morning where there are still some lights left in the buildings, but an overall chill in the surroundings. Or when you wake up on a snow day and you walk outside feeling cold and empty, yet you view yourself in 3rd person to mimic a character who did the same thing in a music video, dramatising the ambience and increasing the romantic stoic impressions all around yourself.
The rumble zone is one that isn't all of those qualities. It's the rotten scum of the earth. It's when a person gets stuck in a somewhat limbo, a frustrated one where they're inhibited by small social conventions. Those who feel awkward and stress and complain, they just seem bad and handling these things, they just can't hold on to the railings. It's like in young justice where the airlocks had some open and everyone's grabbing onto each other to prevent getting sucked off into space. It's just like that, people have to be strong to grab hold on the bars. Just like Neitzsche's way of putting it, painting a picture of ones life constantly is hard, it's painstaking in fact, and he even then goes on to describing the will to power and embracing the pain. The rumble zone is for those who do not seek new solutions but become characters of infinite themselves, they're like bubbles of time that do not evolve at all.
That's just the way it is I do not personally want to say where I am for these theories are pure abstraction and have upmost uncertainty in everything. I myself may be in the rumble zone myself, but I believe that I strive and I am aware of the qualities I possess, giving me the edge to escape the rumble zone. It's that little confidence and leap of faith perhaps.
These issues occur to children on the internet who see dead people everywhere, like myself, I have endured great pain and observed a lot. I have thought of wars, deaths and all sorts of minute details people wouldn't want to even think about. It's just something that grounds us to the basics of life, but at the same time we must utilise our thinking and think beyond reality to gain insight and perspective.
"Be the orange and yourself at the same time- take 240 hits till you get there"- Ian (I literally just quoted myself because I said it out loud, I hope there's nothing wrong with me)
